Between LWV and my Husband my life is very busy. I have not had time to gather my thoughts and just think.
I have had the time to do bible studies. See bible studies.
and Hiking . See hiking.
But my Life has also been filled with more family things. Chazz is now enjoying visiting my family and wants to go see them more. He even has gotten them things like printers and wire less stuff for the computers.
Life is meant to be lived not to be watched.
Today I am going to start writing about my dreams. I think that it might help me to see a pattern on why I have certain dreams. Last night the main dream was of me and my brother Dave. I was driving in a little roller-skate (red) and he was the passenger. We were going to a store to pick something up. When a car almost it us, I swerved and got out of the way. Then a mile latter another accident happened right next to the car; I swerved and avoided becoming part of it. Me and my brother knew we were very lucky put still press on to the store. Then in front of us the freeway just collapsed. We had time to slowdown and swerved to avoid hitting any one and avoided getting hit. But we were on the down slope headed into the freeway pit of rubble.From here I woke up I tried to go back to sleep but the dream crept on happing over and over again. So then I realized I had to finish the story I had to save me and my brother. First I attempted to get out of the car and have us both run to safety. I tried several different routs but in the ends only one of us survived.Second I attempted to save the car and us. Trying several different routs but in the ends both of us die.Seeing my brothers or even my death in a very unpleasant fashion is never good, especially over and over again. The positive side is dealing with death weather real or made up one seem to be closer to God. This in his divine love gave me a way to save both me and my brother. The odd thing is that he was trying to show me this earlier, but I could not here him. In order to save both me and my brother I had to open my heart and my mind up to signs. After the first accident I was more aware about the drivers around me and move to the slow lanes. After the second accident I got off of the freeway. I would not risk my brother’s life just to get to the store faster. We would take the side streets.In the end I learned to always keep my eyes open God is always trying to show us things weather we are asleep or awake. Thank you Lord for saving my brothers life (more then once) and my own (more then once) your humble servant Dani.
It is been a while since I have bogged and a lot has happened. First let me make this brief.
Business
1 I lost my job at T-mobile got layed off.
2 I found a job a t PCM
I did not like the job at PCM it turned me into the person that I hate, I was mean and bashing to a lot of people around me and I worked with a dirty old man.
3 I left PCM
4 I found several good job offers and landed on working with LEI
Yes the company that I and chazz own. Apparently their was enough work and potential for more
5 decided not to work with LMDX again
Richard is not stable and very emotionally iritic Debbie is very unhelpful
6 me and chazz will be leaving the home in 2-3weeks, I am trying t o grow new techno skill that should help me to grow the business.
Family
1 My dad lost his job
The pain in his back as subsided and he can now walk but he is loosing his mind ……… this is the hardest part he feels useless because he is not working and feels that he is not helping any one
2 my moms job is going well she loves it but I don’t know how she is taking what is happening to dad
3 Michelle and keth well I don’t really know
Michelle got a promotion and is having fun again at her new job
4 David is still an ass it looks as thou he is going through what I went through 3 years ago , not really being around evolved a lot with his girl and his work.
5 Josie and the kids and Andreu are doing go in their new place
They needed to be a family of their own andrue needs to decide wither he is going to take Josie on as a wife and Josie needs to decide if she is going to take him on as a husband
We almost lost the kids zack is trying to get full custy (he lives in a shit hole)
Josie’s schooling is almost done
Andrue is still looking at getting a better job
Friends
1 me and Finck are stillnot talking a lot. There is the occasional e-mail or text message every month just to make sure that each other are alive
2 Jason and Liz are doing ok
Jason got a better paying job and seems happier on the out side
Liz appears to be getting better but I think is getting very depressed
I am concerned for their relationship I hop they pull thorough this
3 DH is in Jail and in Love (not with the big guy in the shower)
4 Eric AZ is alive and back on the net and watching every one (am glad he is a good man
5 Murphy is back from over sees and now in Hawaii (I miss him) his family seems to be doing great I try to keep in touch with roxi just to see how they are doing
6 Nathan is in Los vages and sounds like he sis doing ok I don’t know much more then that.
US
We are learning a lot about each other spending every day together is very different.
Me: the night mares have gone away I think I am over the realization of not really having a JOB, I have become more in touch with my body and what it likes and what it dose not like what my mind likes to see and what it dose not like to see
Chazz: I think this has been very hard on him. I don’t know if me being her is better or worse for the situation. He is disowning his parents and taking on my parents officially.
GOD: he is still here just watching us grow and on occasions we get to read some of his work but I think it is more conversations between the 3 of us that is going on right now.
Sex: it is picking up back were it should be pressure of were we are living now and work did affect this and I hope it will not affect it again. I feel it is a very important part of relaxation meditation and making US.
Health: It has gotten better and worse. We are making valid attempts about staying in shap the environment is very difficult to live in.
Ok now that you are mostly caught up on what has been happening in my life I will start by telling you what I am doing now.
Reading a book ‘ the 4 hour work week” and learning about selling requiting and new technology so I can chetch up with what is happening, also I am trying to learn English again and finding out what is going on in the world today. I have a lot of work to do. These doses not include finding new clients for LEI.
This is the magic number. It happens on Feb. 14 and inportant date too. This day has alot of history for many people.
This is the day my contract is up. I will be highired on by PCM.
Yesterday at work we had a bumrush, riot, very angery old people. In there walkers and wheelchairs the elder were exorizing thier right to protest. Just gose to show that no matter how old or yong people are they still beleave that they have a voice.
I just went into her bathroom and I miss her even more.
I am not ok….. 
I am ok realy……. I will be ok………
She officle left today. Some of her stuff is still here but her body is not present any more.
Today I went to the Security lunch.
Good food
Good Coffee
Strange people
Today I also got my first strange complaint. One of the gate guards has bathroom problems and dose not clean up after them selves, gladly I past this off to person in chare of that gate.
Did I ever tell anyone how much I love my brother! This was my most recent birthday party. I called David 10 min after Finck, Brandon, Chazz and I had arrived at the game room. We were just going to play some pool and order pizza. I thought it was a great birthday party. But then I started to miss my brother, I had not seen or talked to him for 2 weeks. So I called him to see what he was doing and just talk to him. I invited him over, I told him we were just going to have a little get together and wanted him to pop by for a hug. He said maybe. When I got off the phone I turned around and there was my whole family, no brother. But I still hit the floor crying because I missed all of them very much. After giving all of them wet hugs, I was crying that much. I actual got to sit and talk with my dad a little bit. It had been along time since I got to do that. It sill brings tears to my eyes… Just when I thought every one had arrived here David showed up. My heart was complete. This was a great birthday party. Thanks Honey
Finck, Michi & Dosie ‘FOOD’ in the corner, Mom’s ‘BAR’, Me getting my father daughter fix.
These are the evil smiling bunny slippers that I ware all the time (they scare the monsters ). Even Finck thinks they are scary.
I like birthday cards; I just hate reading them out loud. But my mother loves to read to me out loud (at least she use to when I was younger). Notice my brother’s great wrapping idea. Notice also the Bunnys.
After working at T-Mobile for 2 years w/the property managment team (average age 30). Now I am working at Laguna Woods Village (Leisure World) as the security supervisor (average age 75).
I beleave that the maturity level around me has lowered. I almost had someone color me a picture w/jumbo crayons while waiting outside of my office.